Patriotic life.

shit

2010-07-26T01:01:00.002+08:00

without

realizing,

i've neglected

this unknown

site of mine.

what's the

use anyway.

I've become

this bitter,

uncomprehensive

and

silent monster.

I'm better

of deleting

this blog.

I'm utterly

despondent.

EDUCATION!

2010-05-17T22:02:00.002+08:00

I need a PRIVATE TUTOR!?

anybody knows of any?

it needs to be a female cause i've past experience with male tutors and

i cannot concentrate and i am an ass with male tutors, I always go against what

he say! Contact/Tag/Email/Facebook/Twitter/Call/Text/Mail

Me!? ASAP! please. thank you!

i shine

2010-05-04T23:15:00.003+08:00

i inhale laughing gas

to be in hysteria.

i conceive the pale person i am.

not wanting to bring anyone down

together with me.

half-hearted

2010-04-13T22:01:00.004+08:00

I'm in a haphazard dilemma.

I'm confuse.

Unsettled.

Queasy.

I feel alienated.

Everywhere i turn, I'm like a freakshow.

At least, people around me are incredible people.

The Bond is there but the population makes me insecure.

I'm terrified cause I'm their ONLY hope!

(i le le le le urvvvvvvvvvvvveeeeeeee eeeeeeeiiiii uuuuuuu )

2010-03-27T03:19:00.003+08:00

"LookS can KILL"

like woah

2010-03-25T02:11:00.006+08:00

to testify to the previous testimony,

let's just say.

If time stood still in front of you and everything, everybody, every single particle freezes except you. What is the first thing that comes to your mind?! FREAK OUT/ SAVOUR THE MOMENT/ DO INEXPLICABLE THINGS. Somehow it seems so delusive and all but I'd hope someday it'll happen. Maybe not in the near future that I'm leaning to. I want time to stop in my past. Those moments when WE share everything. WE do everything together. I'm left hanging now, to see what will be of us all. What we call inseparable is distinct now. Upon assumption, all those who left, each one, one after the other. The decision was spot-on. I should have done that long ago. Stopping at a right moment to salvage myself from being to close. To attach cause nothing I do now, could make me forget those moments. Wishing one day, time would stop so that I can cherish any moments i have with each and every single one of you. If I gave up everything I have, i would. Just for us to be back to the way we were but I don't have anything to give. I'm somebody with nothing to reconcile myself for.

cold hard truth

2010-03-24T02:53:00.005+08:00

i want to apologise,

it's hard for me, i'm M.I.A-ing for a main purpose.

let me put it in retrospect.

I'm in this whole triathlon, i've been through a few of it. But i can't seem to reach the finish line and be with my companions. I'm not weak nor am i slow. I'm taking baby steps to catch up and persevere to the very end together with all of them. I've been running, swimming, cycling and pacing myself to catch up to all of them but every time i try, i falter and broke down into pieces. Like i say, i'm not weak nor am i slow. I'm progressing and improving and never giving up my hope to catch up to all of them. I'll continue running, running and run till i reach all of them. That's when i'll be able to say, "finally, we are equals. and we are going to win the triathlon together". It's not about them, the ones in front of me who are at fault, why should they be in the first place. The faultiest person is the person running to catch them. Sometimes, running away from reality is the only way he could feel free. Free to not care and be ashamed of how his countless tries of agony to catch up with his companion won't bother him. Like i say, as soon as i'm right on track, right on target with them, then i'll sprint. SPRINT TOGETHER WITH ALL OF THEM! I'm happy for all who has finish the race and enjoying the triumph. I'm happy to oblige to your victory but i have a path, a route far longer to catch up. I'm taking baby steps like i said. Pacing myself to catch up.

I'm grateful. sincerely

PEACE

2010-03-16T01:44:00.000+08:00

Around of applause.

Standing ovations.

Fluctuating thumps.

Butterflies fly away...

time

2010-03-06T00:15:00.001+08:00

You can’t be too close to your friend, don’t you even place your trust on them, they’ll dump you deliberately whenever they want. Prior to friends, family comes first. F off

i'm opress

2010-01-22T22:03:00.002+08:00

i'm a goner.

much gratitude.

i want nothing to do with you.

Congratulations!

2010-01-13T22:34:00.001+08:00

I'm proud of all of you who made it to poly!

Congratulations!

i'll see you some other time!

when i'm up on my feet.

i know

2010-01-12T22:19:00.002+08:00

god, i know i've lost.

i know i've disappointed.

i know i'm not worthy of you.

just take me away.

i see my mom,

a thousand sword pierce my heart.

my tears dried up.

i'm done.

GOD, i know i'm a failure.

And i'll always be a failure.

i've lost

2010-01-11T23:50:00.000+08:00

i'm dead.

i'm gonna bury my head deep down the ground.

not forgetting how stupid i am.

low IQ people like me is better of dead.

delusional

2010-01-10T23:50:00.002+08:00

It's heart wrenching. All encompassing.

Mind boggling, tight fisting.

nerve wrecking, jaw dropping,

never-ending perspiration.

This tenacity.

it has come.

LOVE me

2010-01-09T22:51:00.000+08:00

can i have her

pretty please...

Jessica Alba oh tralalala

give me one thing

2010-01-08T12:49:00.000+08:00

Sometimes the most beautiful things

are the ones that will cause most

PAIN!

Lust

2010-01-07T23:41:00.001+08:00

a pleasure

this pleasure.

thank you love

chocolates

2010-01-06T23:11:00.003+08:00

I've always been in love.

Since i was 1 years old.

I've already experience love.

One thing that always brings me joy.

Always cheering me up.

Always making me happy.

I love you chocolate.

I deeply sincerely love you.

asshole, what am i doing. FUCK IT!

tell me

2010-01-05T15:24:00.003+08:00

tell me i'm wrong

tell me you hate me.

tell me you want me gone.

but

i'm telling you.

i want you

i need you

it's too late

a little to late.

i apologize.

last chance

2010-01-04T23:50:00.000+08:00

my last chance.

to prove my efforts.

to prove i can do it.

it's nearing.

answer my prayer.

let me show them i can.

hold on

2010-01-03T23:33:00.001+08:00

Hold on dearly to those

precious to you.

Don't disregard them.

You will never know what will happen.

NEXT!

i want

2010-01-02T23:14:00.000+08:00

can i have this.

the urge

the enlightenment.

2010

2010-01-01T22:32:00.002+08:00

It's Amazing how time flies.

It is a NEW YEAR!

a new dawn to something up and coming.

It's Amazing how fast each of us grow.

I'm ready.

Ready for 2010!

Happy New Year to all!

appreciation

2009-12-30T02:39:00.001+08:00

killer instinct.

pound like a puma.

sting like a bee.

run like a cheetah.

shit happens.

but what is life w/o shit.

No fun.

sports

2009-12-29T03:33:00.003+08:00

It all seems endless.

this unknowing feeling.

this agony of making decisions,

a proper one.

Upmost gratitude for the great time.

to you and you and you.

i must

2009-12-28T02:29:00.000+08:00

sleep.

I extremely need it now.

Extreme migraine.

I'm malfunctioning.

slowly decomposing.

desire

2009-12-27T03:13:00.002+08:00

remarkable.

how taxing it'd be to think too much.

i'm ecstatic

blessed

2009-12-25T21:35:00.002+08:00

thanks!

i needed to release those hot air.

i'm happy.

appreciate it.

LOVE

2009-12-25T12:51:00.002+08:00

One word turns into a war.

I never meant to start a war.

I want to fight, but i'll continue to fall deeper.

I didn't surrender.

I just wanted it to stop.

i need time

2009-12-24T23:04:00.002+08:00

It's strenuous as hell.

This process.

Healing

Done

2009-12-24T05:09:00.001+08:00

I'm tainted.

Had enough yet?!

feeling proud of hating someone.

continue cause

it won't cost me a thing.

your loss.

FUCKtard!

please hear me

2009-12-23T05:36:00.003+08:00

doing good makes me happy.

but don't take me for granted how much i care.

don't take things for granted.

I'm helping cause i care.

I don't sympathize.

I empathize.

i wish

2009-12-23T00:18:00.000+08:00

i wish i was 4 again.

no stress.

always happy. always care free. always smiling.

one more time

2009-12-22T02:38:00.001+08:00

sometimes pieces are not meant to be found.

it's better that way.

and it should be that way.

momentarily

2009-12-21T12:48:00.002+08:00

i just hope it will be temporary.

i'm learning slowly.

to keep forgetting (to forget about you)

one of those things

2009-12-21T00:53:00.002+08:00

i'm letting go.

fate, a simple word to show believe.

i'm faulty.

god, will you answer my prayer.

just plain boredom

2009-12-11T02:04:00.002+08:00

Zeek, mine me being sucha mime but i was bored and i think your post is kinda hilarious.

if you do enter my blog that is Muhd Zikri!

BOLD anything true:

I’m loud.

I’m obnoxious.

I’m sarcastic.

I’m cocky.

I cry easily.

I have a bad temper.

For the most part, I don’t like people.

I’m easy to get along with.

I like to fight.

I have more enemies than friends.

I’ve smoked.

I’ve smoked weed.

I drink coffee.

I clean my room daily.

My Appearance

I’m shorter than 5’5.

I wear contacts.

I wear glasses.

I’ve had braces.

I have braces.

I change my hair color often.

I straighten my hair often.

My ears are pierced.

I have small feet.

Relationships

I’m in a relationship now.

I’m single.

I’m crushin’.

I’ve missed an ex before.

I’m always scared of being hurt.

An ex has physically abused me at least once.

I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.

I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.

I’ve been in love more than two times.

I believe in love at first sight.

I believe lust is more important than love.

Friendships

I have at least ten friends.

I’ve gotten a phone call in the last 48 hours from a friend.

I’ve beaten up a friend.

I’ve been in a serious fight with a friend.

I can trust at least five people with my life.

Experiences

I’ve been on a plane.

I’ve been on a train.

I’ve left the state/province.

Someone close to me has died.

I’ve taken a taxi.

I’ve taken a city bus.

I’ve taken a school bus.

I’ve gone bungee jumping.

I’ve made a speech.

I’ve been in some sort of club.

I’ve won an award.

I’ve spent 24 hours on the computer straight.

I’ve been in a physical fight.

Music

I listen to country.

I listen to pop.

I listen to techno.

I listen to rock.

I’m one of those people who play songs repeatedly until I hate it.

I hate the radio.

I download music.

I buy CD’s.

Television

I spend at least six hours a day watching television.

I watch soap operas daily.

I’m in love with Days Of Our Lives.

I’ve seen and like The OC.

I’ve seen and like One Tree Hill.

I’ve seen and like America’s Next Top Model.

I’ve seen and like Popular.

I’ve seen and like House.

I’ve seen and like 24.

I’ve seen and like CSI.

I’ve seen and like Everwood.

Family Life

I get along with both of my parents.

My biological parents are still together.

I have at least one brother.

I have at least one sister.

I have at least one step brother/sister.

I have at least one half brother/sister.

I’ve been kicked out of the house.

I’ve ran away from my home.

I’ve sworn at my parents.

I’ve made my parents cry.

I’ve lied to my parents.

I’ve lied to my parents about where I am.

I’ve lied to my parents about what I’m doing.

I’ve lied to my parents so I’d be allowed out.

I’ve walked out when I’ve been grounded.

Hair

I’ve cut my hair in the past year.

I’ve dyed my hair in the past year.

I’ve been blonde.

I’ve had black.

I’ve been red.

I’ve been light brown.

I’ve been medium brown.

I’ve been brown.

I’ve had streaks.

I’ve had purple/pink.

I’ve been blue/green.

I’ve gotten my hair thinned.

I use conditioner.

I’ve used silk therapy.

I’ve used hot oil treatments.

I’ve curled my hair.

I’ve straightened my hair.

I’ve ironed my hair.

I’ve had/want dreadlocks.

School

I’ve thrown something at a teacher.

I’ve yelled at a teacher.

I’ve been suspended.

I’ve had an in-school suspension.

I’ve been sent to the principal’s office.

I’ve walked out of class.

I’ve skipped an entire day of school.

I’ve skipped a whole month of one certain class.

I’ve failed a test.

I’ve cheated on a test.

I’ve helped someone else cheat on a test.

I’ve failed Art.

I’ve failed P.E.

I’ve failed Math.

I’ve failed Science.

I’ve failed another class.

A teacher has called my parents.

I’ve been caught skipping.

I’ve been on the honor roll.

despondent

2009-12-01T17:41:00.002+08:00

everything we do, everything we learn, everything we achieve.

everything we accomplish, everything we have, everything we believe in.

It never was meant for anyone else but ourself.

Someone important ever told me this , "Nothing in this world is easy".

You want something, you gotta earn them.

You want to be successful, not for your parents but for yourself.

Nobody live in this world forever.

Our parents, they are never selfish. Never ignorant towards us.

All they want for us is for us to be successful in the future for our own good!

They might not be there by then but we have to realize the importance, the significance of them being our parents.

They are hard on us for one reason. They want the best for us!

Enjoying life is one thing. Fulfilling their needs and aspiration is another.

They just want to be proud of us. And see us happy when we become an adult.

They have been through adulthood and they know its tougher than what we teenagers go through.

I am not to judge how hard it is to take care of a child cause i am still a naive little kid.

It is hard to adhere how our parents think of us.

They don't understand us in many ways. But one thing I know, they will forever look out for us. Care for us, love us and help us if we need them. I know it, I just know it. I know they will never want me to suffer in future.

I cannot say this to you straight to you bro, because you have your rights. I am an outsider. You got loads of time to blossom and change for the better. I am here to help and be a person to help you through that. I want to help. I want what is best for you! That's all!

It is hard to describe how different our life is. But i want you, to share it with me if you allow me to help. I mean well. It pains me to hear all your pain and sufferings cause, we, by far are still human and we always will feel pain and die one day. I don't sympathize you, what i wanted to say to you was, I admire your will, your strength to stand up for yourself. Not like me, i'm more of a coward. I have everything but that doesn't mean i am happy with my life. I just need you to understand. All the things i have, its nothing compared to what i want. I never mind you sharing anything i have but you have to play your part in helping me, to help you to be a better child for your parents. I don't want your parents to always worry about you. I don't want you to be the black sheep of your siblings. I want you to feel better, feel like a family again. A sense of belonging to your OWN family. No matter what, you are part of mine. Blood or no blood relations, Muslims are all related and you are a brother to me nonetheless.

-Mohamad Razi

be it that way or this way...

2009-11-22T03:14:00.001+08:00

let's count from 1 to 10.

every time before you sleep.

at 10, u pray to GOD.

let's just say, it's something i adhere.

bring it all back!

2009-11-04T15:10:00.001+08:00

Mother Tongue & MCQ left!!!

here we go again!

time to end this!

Bring it on!

I need

2009-11-01T22:53:00.001+08:00

in need of new headphones!

can die can die... earpiece sucks

funny

2009-11-01T03:54:00.002+08:00

a show worth watching,

sweet, hilarious and it kinda hits you in the face. BAM

papapalooza!!!

I'm hYpeR!

2009-10-31T03:52:00.001+08:00

ligtning speed smile, did you catch it!?

It's Destined that i am suppose to be treated like trash

2009-10-31T01:19:00.002+08:00

I'm trying,

real hard to succumb to everything.

Tell me,

one thing thats left of me from your memory?

It's hard,

not knowing what the outcomes will be.

I'm,

regretful for the things that i've done.

But i will never give up the way you did towards me!

Freshness

2009-10-30T05:59:00.003+08:00

I just want someone to know,

so far, i've stick by you to help, support, care and love you more enough as a friend. I'm doubtful, after a simple mistake i do, you've already given up and erase everything about me. How cruel are you?! I have never ever tried erasing someone from my memory. I get it now. I know something you know yourself. But you called me a coward instead. If you are reading this, i hope you take back your words cause i never did gave up on my friends. You did! You never tell me the truth from the start and you have the cheeks to call me a coward. I took a long time to absorb it, to make a change for myself. By not replying to anyone. I want to take a step back but you took it in a different perspective and you call me a coward. I'm despondent to what you call me after all i've done to share and care for your sake. This is what i get to be a good friend. You decide, i just want some character change on my own but instead you reluctantly call me a coward. What else is great aye!? I just want to say, no matter how shitty/fucked up/moronic any friend of mine treats me, i will never, NEVER turn my back on any one of them. You on the other hand. Never once wanted to tell me the truth you've been hiding from me.

I'm making this clear, i tried to reflect my actions but once

clearing my mind. I found out, i never once did have the intention to hurt you

but you did the exact opposite to me.

Congrats! I know i'm not the best friend you'd want anymore since

you can just toss me one side and forget i ever existed.

I relay this by a thousand gratitude!!!

98% true, the whole encyclopedia of me

2009-10-24T18:51:00.001+08:00

Sagittarius Strength Keywords:
- Independence

Sagittarius Weakness Keywords:
- Unemotional

Sagittarius and Independence:
Independence is Sagittarius' principle, they crave adventure and excitement and welcome change with open arms. Sagittarius is the sign of the philosopher and the explorer, they will go as far as road will go and explore every corner thoroughly in their ever eternal search for wisdom. Freedom is so important to Sagittarius that they will actually make decisions based on the amount of freedom that is given by the choice they have made, as a result, sometimes a good opportunity is turned down because of it's high commitment need, but this is their choice so it is a good choice for them.

Sagittarius and Friendship:
Sagittarius make excellent friends because of their encouraging, positive nature and their kind heart that will do anything to make sure the friend is happy. They do not expect favors in return, their kindness is selfless. They do not interfere with other people's plans and they are never possessive or jealous. They treat others the way they want to be treated and life life based on a 'live and let live' policy, this makes them so agreeable. Sagittarius are excellent conversationalists with a good sense of humor, sometimes their humor is the raw truth, but these people speak their mind and don't hold anything back. What they say is what they mean, Sagittarius do not like mind games, it holds them back trying to figure out what is meant, they like straightforwardness and expect it in return. Sagittarius are known for saying the 'painful truth', but on the other hand, people know that they can trust what they say because they always say what is real. A Sagittarius never hides anything. Sagittarius are very likeable people. The only people that might not get along with them are people that live by a daily agenda with a highly structured, organized life. They are likely to always be running late and miss a date, but this is only because they are so forward thinking that they forget about the present. Tolerance is required, Sagittarius does not do these things on purpose, this is just who they are. If you understand this and accept this, having a Sagittarius in your life will make the sun shine a lot brighter.

Sagittarius and Business:
Sagittarius are born entertainers and conversationalists. They have no shortage of ideas due to their adventurous lifestyle and exciting life experiences. They make excellent storyteller, comedians, writers, philosophers and actors to name a few, basically Sagittarius are suited to anything as long as it does not tie them down with too much commitment. They like to make the world a better place and a career that will do that is well suited for Sagittarius, they do not however like the fine details and mundane day to day routine this bores them so they tend to procrastinate and let someone else deal with the details. They perform very well in business matters but they are at their best when it is crunch time. If now is the time for all or nothing, and there is a great deal at stake, they can get anything done. Crisis brings out the best in Sagittarius, they perform their best under pressure.

Sagittarius and Temperament:
Sagittarius are not emotional moody people, in fact they can be downright emotionally detached but they do get irritable when they are bored. Sagittarius is optimistic and positive, even deep inside because they believe that no matter what has happened, something good is always around the corner and the sun will always shine again.

Sagittarius Deep Inside:
Sagittarius is a well adjusted person with no emotional problems holding them back. They just want to explore the world and not fret about emotions and feelings. Others may be hurt by their lack of commitment but they don't care, that's not why they are on this planet, they are here to gain wisdom, learn and explore. Sagittarius has problems finishing some projects they started if it takes too long, they want immediate results and will move on to the next project if it takes too long. This is not because of laziness, Sagittarius are far from lazy but this motivation to move on is due to their hatred of boredom. Boredom is their fear and instead of facing it, they will up and leave in search of something more stimulating. Sagittarius are not emotional people but they are easily hurt by a careless selfish action, their will be blue but turn it around pretty quickly with their naturally sunny disposition. They don't dwell on hurt because it is a waste of their energy.

Sagittarius in a Nutshell:
Sagittarius seem to be guided by luck, good things happen to Sagittarius and this is usually because of their optimistic outlook and positive disposition which attracts good fortune. Despite hardships, Sagittarius is always optimistic that good things will happen tomorrow and the future carries good luck. Sagittarius have a vibrant, expansive personality that is free like a bird, Sagittarius cannot be contained. They are full of curiosity and they always look forward to the future, never dwelling on the past. Sagittarius are detached from emotions because emotions hold a person back, they do not like to talk about their feelings, they simply experience them and move on. Sagittarius can be reckless and irresponsible because they will jump at a suggestion of something new before they weigh the advantages and disadvantages.

Adhere Ignorance

2009-10-24T03:10:00.002+08:00

i'm a bad friend.

life's a bitch.

and it's gonna get worst from here on after.

Say goodbye to the razi ya'll once knew.

i need a puff to kill those sorrow.

i need a drink to hallucinate the pain away.

i need pain and scars to make me appreciate.

FUCK! i know i'll hate doing this one day!

but hey, that day will come and it's not now.

i don't want to be good

2009-10-16T01:18:00.002+08:00

be wary, something's gonna change.

enough of being altruistic.

look up, i'm ONE person, there is tons of better people out there.

I'm insignificant.

Erase those bullshits of me!

Abundance

2009-10-12T23:04:00.002+08:00

It was too redundant for me to imbibe.

I apologize. I'm going nowhere if this continue.

I do not wish to exasperate anyone.

I have substantial limits to all this.

We will meet again when the time is right.

I will go now. Sorry, too much drama going on.

S... A.. < name

2009-10-11T00:15:00.001+08:00

i want Q1 of year 2008 back. I miss my kiddo so much!

i get to know you for 3 months and we went separate ways.

Awesome

2009-10-07T09:10:00.003+08:00

6 Oct - It was just hilarious and gawd damn exhilarating. Not forgetting exhausting.

And also, yesterday was the first time ever, someone, a good friend of mine.

A guest whom i need not take care of and worry about his well-being at my house.

A guest who can mingle with my family members.

Play a match of badminton together.

Eat and talk with like a normal family member.

Play, SNAP & DONKEY, yes those ancient games. FUNNIEST MOMENTS!

His calm, not shy, knows how to bring about himself, friendly and partially funny.

And eats "Normal"ly with my family members. Sitting on the floor some more.

My mom likes you, she said, " i like that kid, easy to take care of and can mingle with us"

You're welcome to come anytime dude, bro, friend, etc etc.

All and all, exhausting but enjoyable day.

We are getting to know each other, it will take time for me to get use to it but we can work this out.

It was all me on that day, no shells to cover my true self. I hope you are doing the same dude.

thanks bro

Look Out

2009-10-05T00:10:00.002+08:00

should i say i'm astounded or delighted

Someone has an account for facebook.

Tell you a clue,

his witty,

notorious,

his name has an F and a Q,

his cool,

suave,

mature,

obnoxiously funny,

and furthermore, his a good friend of mine.

i clearly gave away the answer right. oh wells

If you know his name,

search in facebook and add a "fish" after his name.

why fish, ask him. i got no clue.

its not just words

2009-10-03T00:33:00.003+08:00

i'll have your back no matter how you change,
no matter how shitty your attitude is towards me.
i'll be there.
these are not words to any particular person.
to anyone whom i care for and love.
if you know i care and love you.
u know i'm there not by your side, but in your mind and heart.

where oh where

2009-10-01T22:14:00.001+08:00

internet, where are you?!

wat luck

2009-09-21T18:48:00.001+08:00

$275 for the 1st day, bravo... second day, $0, its ok...

the first day can counter for at least a week...

too uber lazy to go out... its raining and i think sitting at home is more fun

Im done for

2009-09-19T23:55:00.002+08:00

Maybe i've had enough of this coexistence between who i care for and who i love.

i've had it.

I'm letting myself down.

A hopeless, shallow imbecile with such patriotic existence.

Its Hari Raya, i can't seem to be happy about it nonetheless.

don't bother texting such a friend, my phone is dead.

i'm dead.

choices

2009-09-19T02:36:00.002+08:00

i've been contemplating, maybe i'm not cut for the next stage.

maybe, i should take little steps and learn the hard way.

i haven't learn my lesson.

such a failure.

once again razi, you did a great job making yourself look even more stupid than before.

congrats

Finally Bloggers Ok

2009-09-16T03:08:00.002+08:00

Since blogger was being a good site, i tot of something stupid to do, FURQAAN, look...

i know your smiling dy...

Confirmation, Baby is coming this 18th September.

I love you Baby!!! :D :D

fair

2009-09-14T19:00:00.000+08:00

life isn't fair to you when it comes down on you like a million spikes.
what you have to do is, EMBRACE!

you see it,
you want it,
you pester somebody.
you got it.

Shit Happens

2009-09-13T23:41:00.000+08:00

I can't msg, i can't call, my phone is dying... So i won't be replying any msg from now on. Try calling, maybe i can answer the phone, just maybe and i hope it won't die on me b4 i get my hands on a new one.

FUCKSHIT W910i....

Fuck

2009-09-12T22:28:00.001+08:00

w910i baby darling is making such a hassle, two years old than create problem... piang eh... its like she knows im gonna change her and love a new darling. FUCK, now i can't sms a proper sms w/o retexting the correct word. The C-pad is broken, go send for repair, no point, no warranty.
Looks like, im getting Iphone 3Gs darling sooner than expected... raiseeyebrows* and no point selling this w910i, worth 10bucks sia...

AND blogger is being a FUCK!

Waiting

2009-09-11T02:43:00.000+08:00

I'm gonna get an iPhone 3Gs. And that's FINAL!
mummy, i know you're gonna buy for me right?! :D
you know i love you so get me one yeah momsy, thank you so much!!!

now its quiet

2009-09-10T02:21:00.001+08:00

Mohamad Adib Anuar, now i'm freakishly bored. An ass you are but hey at least there's someone to talk too. Sleepover dude. then can jog at 5.30am again. and bro, my mom said,

my mom- budak tu tak badan kecik tapi makan banyak eh, mak masak nasi goreng taruk kat pinggan dier banyak tau, itu pun habis?!
razi- biase la mom, his growing, baru 14... makan banyak bagus. dulu dier montel mcm razi. skrg da slim-malim
my dad- oh, patutla, kurus je.
razi- laughs*

you are more than welcome to come here anytime dude!!!

for efa

2009-09-09T04:38:00.001+08:00

adib is such an ass sia...

bring back life

2009-09-06T02:20:00.001+08:00

"People live their lifes bound by what they accept as true, thats how they define 'Reality' but what does mean to be 'Correct' or 'True?' Merely vague concepts....their 'reality' may all be a mirage. Can we consider them be simply living in their own world shaped by their beliefs?"

thanks eh babs

2009-09-06T01:13:00.001+08:00

DAMN funny like hell

Incline

2009-09-05T14:03:00.000+08:00

who says being understated means you're a loser.
goo, bring the popcorn!?

give me spices

2009-09-04T05:23:00.000+08:00

"potential hiccup song"
i grew fonder and fell deeper down this eternal sensation

eye bags

2009-09-03T02:49:00.001+08:00

sleep evades me again

when the world comes down

2009-09-01T02:53:00.000+08:00

"hesitant" a word to describe my fear to face the truth.
every time i go back there, i fortify myself with much courage to enter and be "normal"
none of you understand how it feels to be a failure. don't get me wrong.
being optimistic is one thing to propose. weighing the pain of such epic dimension is another story.
i have to face reality, i know that. one thing you all don't know and adhere, the feeling of shame, disappointment, failure and despair.
you'll only know it when you face it one day. that day will come and i don't wish for anyone of you to go through what i went through.
i'll try my best to make it.

do understand my position. my feelings.

mundane

2009-09-01T02:48:00.002+08:00

this and that, do's and don't. sometimes rules ain't that bad if u look at it in a different perspective.

i go

2009-08-30T03:03:00.001+08:00

eh, whoareyou?
doiknowyou?
we've never met.
sorry

reuse, reduce, recycle

2009-08-27T01:09:00.001+08:00

"Hold Dearly"

oh glorious fasting month

2009-08-24T02:41:00.001+08:00

narcissistic

What's up with BLOGGER

2009-08-10T02:55:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY CAREL SIBEI CHIO!!!
I APOLOGIZE FOR NOT BEING ABLE TO MEET YOU.

-shutting down-
-won't be around any sooner-

GOODBYE

proclamation

2009-08-06T00:55:00.002+08:00

-splitting headache-

a saying

2009-07-23T02:07:00.000+08:00

"All it takes is one bad day to reduce the sanest man alive to lunacy. That's how far the world is from where I am. Just one bad day. You had a bad day once. Am I right? You had a bad day and everything changed".

-- The Joker

Here I go

2009-07-22T23:38:00.002+08:00

Listening was doable.

DLSR was SUPERB.

approximately 8 hours 20 minutes I'm going off to HK!!!

hoooorarh...

ipod is being a bitch now...

fuck sia JaM!!! now must wait till you die

hooray!!!

2009-07-22T00:06:00.001+08:00

its time for LC.

and for Mickey.

i made a PROMISE...

I'm not going anywhere.

all over again

2009-07-21T00:52:00.004+08:00

one by one they disappeared.

one by one they walk away.

one by one we all fall apart.

i bid those who wish to go farewell.

i am in no position to force you to stay.

re-living a new path is better than suffering pain.

we're still friend, believe me.

here comes goodbye.

i'll take my chances as well.

My time is up, we're falling and I'm useless.

Maybe i should .. .. .. .. .. .. ..

inseparable no more

2009-07-21T00:44:00.001+08:00

it's not enough...

breaking is what the heart is for.

it comes to this.

an END.

untitled

2009-07-19T22:26:00.004+08:00

in life,

Those you call best/close/good friends

are always the ones hurting you.

But as a matter of fact,

those who hurt us most are ones

who cares and loves us most.

-alfie

Given a proposition to compensate for each others flaw and faults.

Tangible as it may sound,

only one will want to compromise.

It's all a facade if both parties agreed.

Don't you think its a prolific example if everybody wants peace.

Bloody hell, if that would have happen,

there will be no existence of war, feuds, fights, avenge and discrimination.

There will be a world where everybody will be kind and cheerful.

Skeptical, oh yes indeed.

People fight, quarrel, rage and even kill but

there's always a way to compromise and settle feuds amongst each other.

One could say, that is preposterous.

But I think otherwise.

We are all human beings and we are similar in every thing plausible.

One should never feel the inferiority towards someone just because of a tittle or rank.

Nobody's perfect in this world.

I have my flaws and i am unique cause each one of you are unique in your own way.

Forgiving and forgetting is dramatically different.

Learning how to forgive is one angelic thing to do but not forgetting it is another.

Memories should not be forgotten but remembering those

memories that should not be remember should be acknowledge.

Learn to let go of the past.

Learn to be better and strive for the best is what i tell myself.

I fell,

i pick up myself and go for it and continue striving.

-razi

weird isn't it, sometimes when you want to understate something important, sometimes

you're allure to another topic. from statements above, its my thoughts, my opinion and my own feelings. Honestly

monolouging!!!

2009-07-15T23:55:00.002+08:00

ORAL was such a joy...

Verbalize like a robot/alien.

Shaking like a vibrator.

A week more till LC.

A week more till HONG KONG.

cheeerios!!! :D :D :D

Countdown!!!

2009-07-13T14:57:00.000+08:00

2 days to MT Oral...

9 days to LC & DISNEYLAND.

HONG KONG DISNEYLAND!!!

2009-07-12T19:30:00.003+08:00

10.7.09

Haunting in Connecticut was good.

18 chef was SUPERB as always.

Rasa 21 ice kachang, AWESOMENESS.

Sent goo home and i went home.

Sum it up = GREAT

11.7.09

Ate at Ananas Cafe with Sister dearest.

Went to Animal Farm/Fish Aquarium/Pet Shops.

Went to whitesand.

Spent last bucks for a flip-flops and now i am totally broke.

12.7.09

Currently, Browsing through websites for hotels in Hong Kong.

Holiday, here i come.

Disneyland... Mickey, here i come.

10 more days... wooohooo

REVERANDOM's ALERT

2009-07-03T02:09:00.008+08:00

REVERANDOM's,

Go To This Link, Im not sure why this collage won't work, MY NEW MASTERPIECE!!! hahas

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   MASTERPIECE

I hope you guys/girls like it yeah!!! If possible, try posting it to your blogs, i've tried countless time to upload it but it never appears.... Thanks

Another Day Has Gone...

2009-07-02T23:29:00.003+08:00

Whatever happens, transpire for a reason.

Leave it the way its going to befall.

Nobody can change the past, the only way

is to change the forthcoming,

Fate.

Misinterpretation arise, it is ubiquitous.

Unavoidable.

-Understatement-

Its's A New Day

2009-07-02T02:02:00.001+08:00

When people get hurt, they learn to hate.

But knowing that pain allows people to be kind.

Pain allows people to grow.

And how you grow is up to you.

You know pain,

you think about it,

and the answer you find it

is up to you.

Just One Of Those Things

2009-07-01T08:52:00.002+08:00

AND SO

THEY FOUGHT.

AND SO

THEY LAUGHED.

FRIENDS.

BEFORE THEY

KNEW IT,

THEY WERE

INSEPARABLE

me and my big mouth

2009-06-29T21:19:00.003+08:00

lets make it brief,

i know it's different,

i know that it is sudden,

i love you and only you

since the first time our eyes met.

i love love love love love you oh so dearly...

i'd say,

it's not over till i say it is...

bring yourself to me?!

I'll grab you tight

& never let go.

i was foolish to ever extinguish our feelings.

I can't be in denial

no more.

You're the one i see all the time.

Please, lets be the way we use to.

Just you and me.

Gazing the sunset till moonlight shines.

Promise me, you'll never leave.

Cause I need need need you to

cure myself of insanity.

love, take my hand and i'll make you happy.

I'll make you the happiest girl.

I Promise.

Adobe Photoshop CS4

2009-06-29T01:12:00.002+08:00

It was 2am, i was getting bored so i made this,

was just trying out the CS4, AWESOMENESS!!!

Mister, i know your smiling wide right now looking at this picture, sorry... just a noobie edit since i've just started using CS4... SMILE!!!

Alert to all REVERANDOM's,

Badminton every SAT or SUN at Pasir Ris CC...

Get your lazy bums up cause its time to excercise... :D :D

epilogue...

2009-06-26T02:30:00.005+08:00

She likes this, i edit loh...

I LOVE

lyn lee hotttie

hahass

yo!!!

note: FACE

its nice being young...

2009-06-26T01:39:00.009+08:00

25th June 2009

went to downtown eat, watch drag me to hell. POWWER man the show... shocking like shit sia... i almost screamed coz ally and carel screamed so loud... haha

then off to kfc then to explorer kids, let the pics do the talking...

we had so so so much much fun sia...

its been awhile since i've had that much fun... hahahs :D

This is what we do when the camera's on timer...

Smile :)

i think this picture looks sort of wrong... errr... your say

haha
i like this
this one looks nice... abit of spasm here and there though
nice one... look look... properly
ahahahahhs
watermelon
damn, spot on face sia
leap frog
i like this one
furqaan, wrong smile
ok, thats the way
group picture... thanks momsy

amanda, ur face
hahahahaa
nice one
haha, i like
my nephew... ssss....

more pictures here

Pictures

ok... today was errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrelaxing....

2009-06-25T00:53:00.003+08:00

24.06.09

went to ubin, eat durian, soak in the water, build sandcastles,had some good laughs, and then home. thats bout all for today.

"I feel so trapped with everything i do, youre just there. Even to the girl i like. How bout space and privacy?"

Even to the girl you like... hmmm, actually this phrase makes me ponder... im always there. even to a girl i like. Space and privacy, errrrr.... i've given that to you for a long time... I won't bother with ur affairs anymore. but please, reiterate the part about, im there, even to the girl i like? im really puzzled, i seriously don't get it... my bad

moderately soothing...

2009-06-23T23:28:00.002+08:00

firstly, gotta get my hands on the levis watch and a mac book casing...

what the fuck, the watch is 80+ bucks, the casing is 80 bucks... holyshit...

MY pay won't be enough...

I can't take it, GSS is so mouth watering.... I've spent at least 140 bucks even before i got my pay...

on the brighter side, my nephew and niece are here for a sleepover... thank god, its been ages since i've met them... all well that ends Fantastic!!! :D

im bored, hungry, lethargic, overjoyed...

Ok, i love this pictures...

2009-06-22T02:36:00.007+08:00

They are gems and diamonds... :D

Awfully chocolate owner, Ms Lyn Lee, teeeheee

Oke, anybody, spank my face and my itchy hands...

i was bored, camera was fully charged so, you know...

[cheycheychey]

-i love this-

-haha-

-look-

-howdy-

and the fun part stops...

2009-06-22T02:21:00.005+08:00

SATURDAY, 20.06.09

Speechless... Since its a weekend, my work was million times harder...

nahhhh, kidding, it wasn't what i've expected.

Not much people actually. Maybe they've got bored of the sale from mango.

Oh yes... I Fell For this hottie hot hot girl as i presume a Caucasian but doesn't have fair skin though. Very malay skin, mixed blood type of girl. She's freakishly hot, PERIOD. She's as tall as me or maybe taller and she's so thin, her legs are the size of my arm... LIKE wtf... and and... she wore this hot striking purple latex pants... ohlalala.... STUNNING face and figure... I assume she's a model. High hopes, i wanted to get her number since my colleagues kept bothering me to ask her but i missed two chances... And i've lost an opportunity of a lifetime. haha, CRAP... what the hell am i yakking about... oh wells...

Work didn't end as last as it use to. Time out like about 11.20... woohhooo...

chiong home ah, abeden...

Since it was my last day there, actually supposedly the next day was my last but i decided to quit early, So here are the pictures, didn't have time to take pics with the others, there's more, a lot more... Oh, my co. workers all above 17 years of age so im the youngest there...

from the right - Subrina,Fatin Haziqah, Chan Yen, Ms Lam

Subrina, my part time girlfriend...
ms lam, she's freaking funnnnehhh
ezzan- isn't she sweet... haha :D
the height diff... hahaha :D

to those still working there, GOOODLUCK and hope we meet again some day... :D

Days Goes By Perfectly Nowadays. For some reason, It Kinda Nice

2009-06-22T00:54:00.016+08:00

19.06.09

I got off today. So decided to chill and shop.

After friday prayers met up with Carel, Amanda & Zhen Hong.

Went to Vivocity to thrift.

I think i did spent proficiently... hehe :)

So after grabbing lunch, went to the waterpark, let the pictures do the talking yeah...

Oh yes, Furqaan came by to chill, and this picture... They Look Very good together, dontcha think... sorry special one, i just think they look good in this pic as a couple... if you're reading this... My bad!!!

This was after we went back from vivo... ignore my face..

hahaha

1st scandal...
2nd scandal

she was braiding my hair... hahaha

look, i didn't know my hair was liddat... wtfuck sia...

I HATE retail jobs pffft

2009-06-18T03:17:00.002+08:00

too enervated & phlegmatic to type...

work was fatigue to the max...

Come on, from 12noon, till 4am in the morning... WTF

Never in my life i had to work for 15hrs + 1hr break.

Dang it, i'd tot it be easy... otherwise

Seriously, those who ever want a job, don't go for retail high end shops for job.

Especially, i express, ESPECIALLY during Sale Months, don't apply.

Any high end or any retail shops... You'll suffer on your own conscience...

And on the 2nd day of work, 17th

8am to 1am 16hrs + 1hr break which was split into two, 1/2hr each. You eat like dog sia, chew swallow,chew swallow chew swallow...

I'm not being a stereotype here, i'm just saying what i feel. The worst part, i've realize woman are like piranhas or maybe bees. When there's a Half Price sale, they'll swamp into the shop and flood every area. Those who reckon not to be claustrophobic will encounter this. When they want something, woman can be vicious, they become the wrestler of the lot. You can say, i almost fell after being push by this huge,slander and tall lady. Damn she's huge. till den, 4hrs to sleep and then for nightmares with the other gender.

Saw the flyer turn upside down trip... hope you guys enjoy it yeah... even though it didn't turn out exactly what you guys wanted. In life, things don't just turn out the way you want it to, sometimes, change can be better than the plan created... :D see ya soon after i finish this god damn job yeah... :D i'll have kachings... i wanna treat you guys all :D

it will cause a sting...

2009-06-13T15:43:00.010+08:00

I'm bumped over this never ending understatements.

Readers, this post is specifically for a close friend of mine.

I've had it to point of no suffice.

"You're deliberately making things much more difficult for me ok. What is it that you want? What is it that you need? What exactly are you trying to reinstate? This constant understating of each other won't bring forth liberty. Tell me, aren't you tired of this. I know i am. Come on, i've tried my hardest to always make things better. The recent post, i really think that you can step out of the box and at least acknowledge what i was trying to relate. I know i always vanish at some points of time but there isn't a reason for you not to contact me. You should know better, you got your O's, i've got mine. Your schooling, I'm not. I'm working, your not. I'm busy, so do you. You got your own things to do, so do I. How am i suppose to act if the actions your stating is clueless. You never share your sentiments, you don't interact with me anymore about anything. Who's left out here. At least, you got friends every weekdays to interact with, to mingle with and to joke around with. What am I compared to you now. I really can't contradict what you really want/need from me. Don't you trust enough. Must i prove something. Must I make the first move to start a conversation. It takes two person to start a casual chat. Even through text messaging, a simple word of 'How are you?' would be wonderful. I've stated before, i'll be the past, if i have to. Losing a friend is the worst thing for me. You always say that its awkward but that sentiment won't help if you keep stereotyping yourself. I don't know, I'm totally disoriented. I'm wiped out over this little misconceptions. Please, if you seriously need someone to talk. In any ways imaginable, just contact me. Step out of your comfort zone, awkwardness dies of easily if the commotion continues smoothly. Could we be like last time?! Right now, I'm on thin piece of ice awaiting for the moment when it starts to freeze and history will totally be eradicated forever." -Mohamad Razi Bin Mohamad Zen